Food

I love food. Or, more correctly, I love to eat food. This is one of my biggest challenges and a natural first place to start in my journey to better health. Food has become almost my everything and I use it to bury my sadness, my fear, my anger, my frustration, my insecurities and, worst of all, even my happiness. Sometimes I eat just to eat. The food might not even taste that good to me. My stomach might be hurting from the onslaught but I continue to shove it in. This is how I self-medicate. This is my addiction.

It has a taken a long time to get to this point. I think I've always had a bad relationship with food and that the challenges in the recent years of my life have only accentuated the problem. Perhaps the most difficult part is that I have always misunderstood nutrition. I blush a little to remember that, at some point in my childhood, I picked up the idea that sugar calories weren't a big idea because they're "easy to burn off." I held this idea in the back of my head long into my late teens and early twenties. I still struggle to know what I should and should not eat. It's easy to feel overwhelmed with this--especially with the myriad of "diet plans" and modes of thinking that are out there. I'm guessing that I'm not the only person who struggles with this.

Luckily for me, an opportunity to learn about nutrition and learn healthy eating has presented itself. I have a friend from church who has recently opened a fitness center. She also prepares healthy meals for client and has graciously been taking some time to teach me about what she does. I have already learned a few healthy meals that I can prepare at home. Komoss, you are literally a God-send. I am so grateful for what you've been teaching me. The food is delicious and I am excited about what I'm learning. I have been eating these healthy meals for almost two days now. I love how they taste and I'm looking forward to feeling better as I continue to eat better. I won't lie and say that I'm never hungry, but I am learning to appreciate what I am eating and stick within portion sizes.

(If any of you would like to learn more about Komoss and her facility, here's her website: jumpstarthealthandfitness.com)

So, I have started focusing on a big part of my problem. I am excited to see where this goes. I hope you are, too.